After Action Review (AAR)

2mths has passed since my first article and i realized that it potrays me as a rather sad guy
but in reality i think im quite humorous,sore loser-like, sentimental and sincere
these are just my inner thoughts ... sumbody used to say i think too much
now i write wad i think down lo... so i save it here then wont tink again..

Regrets and no fate

Fate is when coincidences happen and magic gets triggered
when suddenly both coincidently get attracted to one another

Regret is when it happened before but wasnt appreciated
or when the opportunity came but didnt realize till it went by

fate dont happen most of the time,
and when it decides to drop by that one time
the opportunity must be realised
and not regretted upon

*i dont see my opportunities till they are gone
then i regret coz they cant be worked upon
danm my life sucks...

Guard duty talks during afternoon walks

My standard for a girlfriend is very high means...

You canot everytime eat bao yu,
sometimes you eat kway chap also shiok, correct?
and both also makes you full...
maybe you eat kway chap then u will also like chicken rice,
too much of a good thing is not good.

My winning mentality means...

you canot everytime win
or else you will never be happy
because if dont like to lose
means you can only win
and it will not happen all the time
so you will never be satisfied
must learn to be content with wad you have


conclusion:

i still feel very unsatisfied with myself and
there is no girl in my life to set a standard for.
so i continue to be miserable...

A song

My friend and i wrote this song together for his girlfriend. He contributed the feelings, i made his feelings into listenings.

its a simple song that can be played by the guitar and we hope Nicole enjoys it.

I forced my eyes open
don't want the morning to happen
but it comes along anyway

As i dragged my feet to toilet
as usual it is crowded
my brain is sill half-dead

Chorus:
Then i stand there and smile
'Cause you floated by my eyes
now i am edisfied
by your love

Then i got to my cupboard
start searching for my handphone
so i can msg my Dearie again

just a simple really big "Hi"
and that you are my starlight
i gotta start my boring day now

Chorus:
So i stand there and smile
Cause you floated by my eyes
now i am edisfied
by your love

So i marched the road
as glum as a toad
seeing trees all around me

Then i got into class
feeling just like an arse
wishing that its your arms around me

Bridge:
So u see, Oh! Nicole
as everyday every second goes
it is always you i am thinking about
your twinkliest eyes
And the most loveliest smile
the way you walk, as clumsy as a cow
your forgetful mind
and your cute little voice
it is always you i am thinking about
Oh Nicole

Chorus (ad lib)
So im right here with smile
Cause you are just right in front of my eyes
tell me you are edisfied
by my love

Gotta Shine

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous , talented & fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. "

Reunion

i love my cousins.. we grew up together =>

prettiest sisters, liping,liming and liting
cutest twins, kenneth and benneth
most cutest girl in the world, sue lynn
princess of princessess, samantha
world's cleverest family, adeline, joyclyn and danial
the tall kid, sean
the cute boy man, adrian
the richest poor guy, melvin
nicest pai kia, anyang
smartest pai kia, an perng
godsis..grace and lynette
lil babee evan
jia en and jia yan for their smiley actions
and everyone else who doesnt have a distinct feature =p

and carmen, the gal who is my role modal and she doesnt even know..

btw, i have really handsome uncles and pretty aunties
i swear

New Love

i think i have just fallen in love again.
she has the sweetest eyes,
the cheekiest smile,
and the laughter we share doesnt happen just once in a while.


but im an idiot
i waited too long
now she has another
and she hopes it lasts long

i feel so hurt
all crushed up inside
i thought she was the one
she kept screwing my mind

i duno wad to do
was it karma or voodoo
i thought it could be
just me and you

now i have to let her go and hope for the best
ill be sad awhile and the loneliness' a test
but the times we shared, the moments we had
i will tuck in sumwhere, safe in my mind

to the person who has my Idiot coolbear:

i really do care for you
i just want you to be happy now
i dun tink i can find sumone else like you
somehow

Most attrative thing about you is your confidence

No matter how pretty and handsome a person is,
it wont show from deep within.
it is the believe in yourself,
that you cherish thyself,
that spreads your beauty to everyone else.

it is the belief that you are attractive that really makes one smile
the biggest eyes and the sharpest noses can only do so much

because the looks you may have
could be too much for you to handle
and the only way to be truely attrative,
is to be confidant of yourself.


this is the type of attractivess that i dun have.