stupid.

i was curious at first..
it was a mystery, i wanted to know the ans

cldnt get anymore information, kept thinkin abt it
became too involved

assumed things, believe things
that may never be true

i look back, i realized a 1-sided affair
the qn i had became a personal treasure hunt

this treasure i heard, lays at the end of the rainbow
the hunt i began, became a ship beyond repair.

so naive...
curiousity became an obsession
cat became mi.

* sld hav listened to my bros...

juz a thought...

hmm..........

Nobody said life was easy

Some people have it so easy,
They makes things seem so gentle and breezy
Why is it that i feel my burden is heavy
Is it bcoz the things i wanna do are many

I wanna work and get a nice good degree
Whilst doing this, i wan to also be there for friends and family
Is there time to find sumone who will love me ..?
Someone who is independant but still dependant on me.

I tried to do things, to be nice and gentlemanly
But to some they may appear to be scary and freaky
Well i guess the bad boys always get the ladies
But i dun care im jz gonna be me.

Ill continue to ride my vespa and try some photography
Ill sill work and try to achieve for my degree
Ill also do music with guitar and pump my body
Ill do things that make me feel happy

what im trying to say is
even though life is never easy
everyone knows how to make life happy

p.s just look at the alcohol and drugs and places one can go to have fun...its easier to hav fun ! =p

Le female Garden

Girls are like shrubs and trees or any kinda plantation
Some are sophisticated and elegant like the Vanda Miss Jaoqiun
Others are kind and caring like herbs that make you strong and healthy

The kind that i like best is the sunflower.
All she does all day is smile and be happy
Even when it rains and the day is crappy
She still smiles even though her petals are heavy.

The Sunflower spreads out its warmth around
She allows her necter to be shared, not count.
All she needs is that simple sunlight and ground
how did i ever, ever let her down.

Is it the cap i that gave,
the one that blocked all the sunlight away
or is it coz of the things that i have said
the forbidden 3 words of truth that i said anyway.

i dun understand how all these plants think or work
but i do know that flowers give me a sense or worth.
whether they only grow on mountains or live juz down the street.
flowers, there are many, but which is most suitable for soil like me...?

to God

u got it spot on.

Vomit !

1 whole year....i didnt update my blog. failed one of my resolutions miserably...

after a year of silence...

i came into conclusion that....this is not my diary, this is where i vomit everything in my mind...
i wont put up pics coz im putting them up sumwhere else in the name of convenience..

Life :

you have one
u can choose to share it wif everyone
u can choose to do wadever you want
the thing is that, everyone else also has one
so wadever u choose, choose the right one.


Mystery Gal , This is my msg to u

it wasnt your eyes or smile that caught my attention
it has always been the confidence and character tt u hav...
we hav nv met, yet i see so many similiarities
we hav nv spoken, yet i feel like i know u
your life mirrors mine
parrellel, side by side
but nv together...

有些话虽然一点老土，可是用在这里满适合的
"我们没有缘分”

Patience
is not one of my virtue
it is sthn i intend to live wif.

do u noe that the both of us
1) still hang out wif cousins
2) dun trust ppl easily
3) stick to closer ppl
4) enjoy eating everything
5) dun realli care abt looks
6) enjoy snapping bits and pieces of our lives
7) love kids
8) read books
9) put family above everything else
10) u got the wawa, i got the cupboard bros

yet, we duno e/o


Finally,
New goals
1. new camara
2. get good scores for degree modules
3. ord
4. pass the ball earlier when dribbling
5. dun piss off mystery gal
6. get to thailand and bali and take the most beautiful pic the world has ever seen
7. cherish the cupbaord gang
8. help out at mum's
9. inspire young kids
10. rmbr abt this blog

accomplished
1. retro choclatey vespa wif a smile on my face
2. be contented
3. no expectations

After Action Review (AAR)

2mths has passed since my first article and i realized that it potrays me as a rather sad guy
but in reality i think im quite humorous,sore loser-like, sentimental and sincere
these are just my inner thoughts ... sumbody used to say i think too much
now i write wad i think down lo... so i save it here then wont tink again..

Regrets and no fate

Fate is when coincidences happen and magic gets triggered
when suddenly both coincidently get attracted to one another

Regret is when it happened before but wasnt appreciated
or when the opportunity came but didnt realize till it went by

fate dont happen most of the time,
and when it decides to drop by that one time
the opportunity must be realised
and not regretted upon

*i dont see my opportunities till they are gone
then i regret coz they cant be worked upon
danm my life sucks...

Guard duty talks during afternoon walks

My standard for a girlfriend is very high means...

You canot everytime eat bao yu,
sometimes you eat kway chap also shiok, correct?
and both also makes you full...
maybe you eat kway chap then u will also like chicken rice,
too much of a good thing is not good.

My winning mentality means...

you canot everytime win
or else you will never be happy
because if dont like to lose
means you can only win
and it will not happen all the time
so you will never be satisfied
must learn to be content with wad you have


conclusion:

i still feel very unsatisfied with myself and
there is no girl in my life to set a standard for.
so i continue to be miserable...

A song

My friend and i wrote this song together for his girlfriend. He contributed the feelings, i made his feelings into listenings.

its a simple song that can be played by the guitar and we hope Nicole enjoys it.

I forced my eyes open
don't want the morning to happen
but it comes along anyway

As i dragged my feet to toilet
as usual it is crowded
my brain is sill half-dead

Chorus:
Then i stand there and smile
'Cause you floated by my eyes
now i am edisfied
by your love

Then i got to my cupboard
start searching for my handphone
so i can msg my Dearie again

just a simple really big "Hi"
and that you are my starlight
i gotta start my boring day now

Chorus:
So i stand there and smile
Cause you floated by my eyes
now i am edisfied
by your love

So i marched the road
as glum as a toad
seeing trees all around me

Then i got into class
feeling just like an arse
wishing that its your arms around me

Bridge:
So u see, Oh! Nicole
as everyday every second goes
it is always you i am thinking about
your twinkliest eyes
And the most loveliest smile
the way you walk, as clumsy as a cow
your forgetful mind
and your cute little voice
it is always you i am thinking about
Oh Nicole

Chorus (ad lib)
So im right here with smile
Cause you are just right in front of my eyes
tell me you are edisfied
by my love

Gotta Shine

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous , talented & fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. "

Reunion

i love my cousins.. we grew up together =>

prettiest sisters, liping,liming and liting
cutest twins, kenneth and benneth
most cutest girl in the world, sue lynn
princess of princessess, samantha
world's cleverest family, adeline, joyclyn and danial
the tall kid, sean
the cute boy man, adrian
the richest poor guy, melvin
nicest pai kia, anyang
smartest pai kia, an perng
godsis..grace and lynette
lil babee evan
jia en and jia yan for their smiley actions
and everyone else who doesnt have a distinct feature =p

and carmen, the gal who is my role modal and she doesnt even know..

btw, i have really handsome uncles and pretty aunties
i swear

New Love

i think i have just fallen in love again.
she has the sweetest eyes,
the cheekiest smile,
and the laughter we share doesnt happen just once in a while.


but im an idiot
i waited too long
now she has another
and she hopes it lasts long

i feel so hurt
all crushed up inside
i thought she was the one
she kept screwing my mind

i duno wad to do
was it karma or voodoo
i thought it could be
just me and you

now i have to let her go and hope for the best
ill be sad awhile and the loneliness' a test
but the times we shared, the moments we had
i will tuck in sumwhere, safe in my mind

to the person who has my Idiot coolbear:

i really do care for you
i just want you to be happy now
i dun tink i can find sumone else like you
somehow

Most attrative thing about you is your confidence

No matter how pretty and handsome a person is,
it wont show from deep within.
it is the believe in yourself,
that you cherish thyself,
that spreads your beauty to everyone else.

it is the belief that you are attractive that really makes one smile
the biggest eyes and the sharpest noses can only do so much

because the looks you may have
could be too much for you to handle
and the only way to be truely attrative,
is to be confidant of yourself.


this is the type of attractivess that i dun have.

looks

in this society...looks are veri impt...guys and gals out there....gotta look the best u can...u born handsome or pretty...lucky u...

if onli i was handsome....but im sure can make it up wif other qualities...

Way of Living

In Singapore,
we have the unfriendlist people, most inconsiderate jokers and selfishest barbarians.
you just have
1) to try to get out of an MRT
2) or try to signal into another lane while driving.
3) or observe the queues during discount season.
to believe me.

Why is it like this?
1) theMRT door closes too fast ?
2) if i turn into your lane i will make you jam break?
3) Blocking my path makes you high?

Just like the japanese who clean up their own rubbish, it is our way of life to give people rubbish
thats how singaporeans should be.

we only support winning things. even if the losing country in football was our own.
we only pay less for more quality. it sounds impossible but we will get it.

3 phases if life in singapore

1) keep learning from day 1 of birth (say "mama") untill 26 or more
2) work hard to earn money to support family
3) pay medical fees and wait to go, if lucky will go on tour around world in 2 weeks.

notice that we cannot afford
to feel like taking a year to go travel around the world.
to take 1mth off just to nua
to date too many people coz they will sumhow noe each other
to be a couch patoto
to slow down the pace of life.

*everyone seems to have the same goals in life. but there can onli be one winner.

At this point of time i feel like loaning lotsa money from bank and flee to sum nua country like England, open a ladies' wear shop and go fishing everyday.There even the nua-ers have a roof over their heads. so if i sell clothes im rich.

which brings me to NS, who will defend singapore wif their life if theres a war?
..we are all smart people ...

Balance

why do we save money

if i do not spend while i am young and energytic
do i spend it when i am old and paying medical fees?

maybe it is for a rainy day

i wonder why people study so hard.

if i do not enjoy myself while i am young and energytic
do i have fun while i am weak and fragile?

Balancing is an art. once achieved can do miracles.

Perfection

Perfection is a waste of time because nobody is perfect.

It is the will to do things to the best that you can that is of more value.

If one is dumb but hardworking he is highly respected, agree?
But if one is intellectual but lazy he is condemned, disagree?

The point is all about attitude.
if you think you are not good enough, work hard.
If you think you are good, you are wrong.

nobody is ever good enough, because nobody is perfect.

Why gals muz b pretty (uncensored)

Bcoz
1) the guys wont feel excited
2) blood dun flow to certain places
3) wont get the guys' attention
4) bcum missed (haha...had to use the word)

so here are 3 simple steps to being pretty
1) research
2)do the research
3) research maintenance

for gals

BEAUTY IS POWER .....doesnt work for guys.

Desi(RED)

There is this new advert where everything has (RED) in it...
does it hav to be red..? tho i cant rmbr the words...but did anione realise tt its related to feelings..?

another of the power of words....
im trying to get the list of it...but onli rmbr desired...

i feel like the onli guy hu read books nowdays...im sorta like a retarded geek coz i read....
when ppl ask for my hobby and i say reading...there will always be a need to repeat the answer..

another thing...i look like a non-reader too...i dun hav the geek face..
another reason why im different from most guys...

reti(red)

Miss

Ever felt like you missed sumthin..?

a chance to know sumbody
a test u failed by the minimal
sum one/thing nv treasured until too late
should hav noticed but didnt..
an object not ard but needed
a target that didnt go the way u wanted
an object is missing

were they missed so that we can treasure more valuable events in future?
missed so that we appreciate what we already hav?
if i kept missing...wads he point?

edison missed 1999 ways to make a light bulb before finding the correct filament
he found 1999 ways not to make a light bulb.

why?.....do we address a gal...by MISS?
miss ong...miss tan....
we miss them?....canot get them or keep thinking of them? or we wld give them a miss?

Ironically,2 b left out is also to be missed, which also means 2 b needed

to mi...its kinda kool how words work....isnt it?...haha =>

ReSolutions

1. do my BEST for my courses at camp
2. get a car
3. be more friendly to all.....
4. learn how to talk normally when around gals
5. appreciate family and frenz more
6. get tt scuba diving cert..
7. rmbr abt this blog

New Begining

its the new year and ive decided to start a blog.

I am not your average guy..Why?

Because
1. i canot speak chinese well but sing chinese songs
2.i like band cause i spent 12yrs being obsessed with it (played the trombone)
3. i love soccer
4. i love reading books
5. im the onli eng speaking guy among my chinese speaking frenz
6.i dont like clubbing and smoking
7. My best fren is a malay
8. i hav a twin bro
9. There are 3 other pairs of twins among my relatives
10. i still hang out with my cousins
11.i still miss my 1st love after so long
12. looking for a gal i can click with..
13. I still like to hang out with my family
14. i click better with jc people den poly ppl but went to poly
15.my face turns red easily (SHY, LIE,etc.)
16. unintelligent ppl make mi stressed
17. believe in eternal love

so you see...im quite the opposite of most guys.

my special point, im sincere.(coz of pt no.15 =p)